Monday, February 4, 2019

A little bit of career guidance, maybe?

Hello fellow smcians. How is life? Pretty messed up right? Wards, classes, attendance issues and to top it all, the lack of entertainment at university irritating you to the max? Well guess what, life isn’t very pretty across the wall. Lack of a good satisfying employer or a well paid job, indecisiveness about what future pathway to take a risk on and the general tiredness we all have been feeling at our jobs. All these are problems that most of us were not aware of when we graduated nor did we even think that such a state will come upon us any time in our lives(well theres a bit of exaggeration there I admit).

So tell me final years, you have just 9 months in hand before you graduate and then you will be left alone to explore the world on your own. Have you thought about what you are going to do after you leave this place? If the answer to the above question is even a slight no, please continue reading.

So if you look around yourself, you will see that not only recent graduates but people who had graduated es early as five years back are experimenting with their lives, hopping from one pathway to another in search of a residency placement or some stability career-wise. The problem? No prior career planning before we graduated. Only when we were exposed to the job market and realized that the job market is not suitable for us here or abroad, it was then only that we were forced to work on a backup plan to at least make ends meet. What was the drawback of not brainstorming our options before and creating a plan A and plan B before we jumped in to the ocean of opportunities? Wastage of precious and valuable time.

So to chalk it down, let me give you a few simple questions, the answers to which will guide you as to how to shape your journey for the future.

1) Do you plan to practice as a doctor or want to switch fields?

2) Do you plan to practice in Pakistan or work abroad?

3) If Pakistan, do you plan to do specialisation or just continue working as a medical officer(with no additional degrees)?

4) If you want to pursue specialisation in Pakistan or abroad, what field have you decided to work in?

5) How did you make a decision to choose this particular field? Any prior experiences in that particular department working as a full time doctor to advocate your decision? Note: just because you ‘like’ something, it does not necessarily translate in to your future career choice. (sorry, major myth buster there)

6) If you plan to work abroad, which pathway have you decided to choose? PLAB, USMLE, AMC, etc.

7) Do you have full knowledge about the timelines and procedures that you need to follow for these pathways? This means that if you assume that you are a graduate today and have all the required documents in your hand, do you know how to carry out each and every step of the application that is going to come in your way?

8) Do you or your sponsor(parents, guardian, some friend or family member) have the finances to support you in pursuing this pathway?

9) What made you choose a particular pathway? Do you know the real time job scenario in the market that five years later when you graduate as a consultant of a particular subspeciality, what are you going to do then? Will it be a private clinic that you will be establishing or will try to secure a job in some top notch hospital (regardless of where you have graduated from) or try to apply abroad in the middle east and work there?

The reason for asking the above questions is to trigger your thought process in to thinking about something which most of you might not have ever done in your life. Why? Because no one provoked you to. But the answers to these questions are really important to make timely decisions. All of us have seen smart people around us who appear in USMLE exams during medschool and fly off for electives and foreign exams right after graduation and six months or a year later, you see them being matched at some hospital in the states. While there are plenty of examples of people who tried their luck at one pathway without a backup plan and unfortunately did not get to pursue that and then had to start from scratch to work on plan B. So the point I am trying to make is that life may not look too wonderful to you today but this is a golden, carefree time in your lives and given the opportunity, all of us graduates would want to return to the carefree college life again. So think about your career choices before its too late.

Anyways, all the above discussion is regardless of the fact that whatever is destined for you is going to come in your life at just the right time. I am a very strong believer of this fact but what I also know is that nothing in life is going to be served to you on a golden plate and that whatever has been destined for you has to be grabbed with utmost hardwork, determination and good planning. So you can’t make any compromises there.

Also, the above post was done with the purpose of giving you a mini heart attack and I am expecting a lot of inbox messages or comments as a reflex reaction, asking for guidance about a particular field of interest or about pursuing a particular pathway. Know that all of us seniors are here to help you out but we can’t dedicate our time to guide you about something from scratch. So if you want to know about FCPS in some field, do your research about the document requirements for part 1, the exam pattern, the books required, how many years it takes for the complete training in your field of choice, what is the IMM and FCPS II exit exam. All this is information that is already available easily on the internet and we need not waste time discussing these basic things. However after you have exhausted all your research resources with regards to a particular thing, then only drop up an inbox message. We will be happy to guide you.

Point to note: I plan to pursue residency in Pakistan and have zero to minimal knowledge about the current scenario of how to apply for foreign exams and their current acceptance rate of foreign graduates so I am not the right guy to consult for the foreign pathway. However you will find a lot of seniors ready to help you out in this regard but remember the golden rule that I mentioned above.

P.S. Choose your mentors wisely. It is particularly important who you are asking for information on a particular thing. Top priority should be given to people who have cleared these exams and are in the process of applying or are currently working after clearing these exams as they are updated on the latest information which might be missed or overlooked by people who went through this thing somewhere in the past.

P.P.S. If any senior has made the effort to go through this post, I am very sorry if it hurt your sentiments in anyway. The point was not to undermine your efforts in any way, its a difficult journey I know and all of us are giving our absolute best to land at good places so whatever I wrote above, please don’t take it to your heart. I respect you all highly and this was done with a purpose to give a small reality check to the new lot.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Time for some fun!

Assalam o alaikum.

It is exam time yet again and I am feeling really excited about the exams and all the other fun stuff that I will get to do in this preparation leave inshaAllah. As always, I have been feeling more creative than ever since exam time has started! Alhamdolillah for this feeling. I went for swimming with my brother this Sunday and it was crazy fun. We stayed there for 2 hours and a lot of memories from our three-year old swimming pool sessions came back. It was pleasing to see that we could remember most of what was taught to us at that time and with a little practice, we can get back to our best performance from that time inshaAllah. I have been regularly going with my brother for badminton in the nearby park and although there is a lot of wind there, it is always fun to beat him and hurl the shuttlecock in all directions only to get him really angry at that. Who doesn't like winning anyways!

I was trying to read and understand Shikwa by Allama Iqbal 2 weeks back when our classes got off and we had holidays to prepare for a module exam. Just now, I got the chance of listening to an audio by Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan in which he reads Iqbal's Shikwa. I went through half of it and although I couldnt understand much of it, it was still fun to listen to it alhamdolillah.

So yes, alhamdolillah feeling really blessed these days. Exam preparation days are the days to get close to ammi abbu, to bhai and to Allah taa'la. And to study for acing exams of course. Stargazing is a bit off these days but I still glance at Jupiter, Venus and Moon whenever I go out. Moon looked beautiful when it was full two days back and has started to fade from one side. What an amazing place has Allah taa'la made for us to live! SubhanAllah.

I read a friend's blog last night and felt inspired to start re-writing since this is what we people used to do back in 2012 when I joined twitter and made this blog. Fun time alhamdolillah. I was rejoicing many of the memories from that time last night. It made me happy. I was feeling nervous to write a blog after a long time, to be judged for my writing skills and english, but well, I just mustered up the courage to give it a go. Now don't you dare break my confidence!

Going off now only to write back in a few days inshaAllah. Assalam o alaikum.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

I study, you study, we study

Assalam o alaikum. I was going through GIT semester past papers last night and I thought I would share some tips for exam preparation with you people so that we all can prepare well for the exams inshaAllah.
My reason of posting past papers here was that they would aid in our learning process such that we will have an idea of what kind of questions come in the exam. We all study so hard for the exams, going through each and every detail from the book but why doesn't everyone score good marks? Why is it that only roughly 50 people from the class take the lead and score extraordinarily well every time? It is not that you are not intelligent enough. You just need to prioritize what to study first and remember only the details the examiner would expect from you. You need to skim through the details from the book and memorize only those that are required since that is going to come in the exam. But who will tell you whether you have to memorize the pathogenesis and genes and morphology for a disease? It is here that past papers come to the rescue.
Past papers give you an idea of the kind of questions that come in exam. The topics most frequently asked. The details of a particular disease that the examiner would like you to know. Alhamdolillah we got to interact with Dr. Mehmood from pathology department a lot this semester so we have a fairly good idea of what diseases are important and what can be asked about it in the paper and viva but since everyone doesn't attend classes, they can take benefit from these papers.
Don't read these questions just for the sake that they will be repeated as it is in the exam. I admit I did go through these past papers for the same purpose during the module preparation but we have seen from our past experience that only about 10-20% questions are repeated from the past papers so as of now, you should all be using these past papers to see which diseases are asked most about, what things about these diseases the examiners are most interested in, what type of questions come from medicine and surgery and what details about a drug do examiners ask you about. Our books contain immense detail about diseases. Not everything is to be learned. I hope you got my message.
Also, you should read past papers as if you are reading one line facts about diseases. In fact, this is what they actually are. One liners that give you a quick revision of the disease that you have already studied about. What I did last night was that while reading Sem6 2013 GIT papers, I would read the mcq, go through the answer and think about whatever I could recall about the disease. There was a sbl with no scenario written in the question and the question said the diagnosis is Hepatitis C. My thought process: Hep C and Hep B are quite similar to each other. What presentation would the person present with? Weight loss, anorexia, jaundice, ascites, lethargy, cachexia, anemia. What distinguishing feature would have made me choose Hep C and not Hep B? Both are transmitted sexually, through body secretions, through needles and transfusions and from mother to child but Hep C is mostly transmitted through needles and transfusion and Hep B is most commonly acquired from a HBsAg-positive mother. Why didnt I mark Hep A and Hep E? Both are acute hepatitis presenting with fever, myalgia, arthralgia, jaundice which are transmitted through fecal-oral route so the person must have a history of eating or drinking contaminated food or he must be a poor person living in rural areas with poor hygeinic conditions. See? There is no rocket science in what I did. I just recalled all that I could remember about these diseases. I might have missed out some major signs and symptoms, modes of transmission, investigations but you can always go back to the books for that. This brainstorming is necessary for our learning process and we all are sadly lacking at this.
Our teachers correctly point out that we study each and everything, we know all the details but we can't solve questions in exams just because we haven't practiced to apply our knowledge. When you practice questions at this stage during preparation, the exam questions will inshaAllah seem easier to you.
As far as going-through-the-syllabus-once rule is concerned, I would say that this approach makes us rather tired and we lose our interest in studying. At least this is how it goes for me. I was talking to a friend before the endo module and he said that he started revising endo patho from robbins and he wasn't even half way through when he got bored and switched to irfan masood but to no avail. He said he couldnt complete even patho before the module let alone other subjects. As experience has it and from what teachers and seniors tell us, the most common and famous diseases are asked more frequently in the exams than the rare ones. I go with the approach that when I am studying a certain disease from patho, I go and have a brief look at it from medicine and pharma so that I can integrate all my knowledge at one place that how the patient is going to come to me, what signs and symptoms I will gather from history and examination, what investigations I am going to order and what treatment I will give. It keeps my interest in studying intact and alhamdolillah I feel good while going through this new information.
How can you possibly study and that too study well when there is no interest in studying? When the only intention is to go through the syllabus so that you can at least clear the exam. This approach makes us feel tired and instead of doing our best and hoping for good grades, we end being so exhausted that we start studying just for the sake of passing the exams. The interest in scoring good grades diminishes. So I would like you to please go over this text and think about it. Let us make these prep leaves different from others and study with more zeal and enthusiasm to score even better grades than before. InshaAllah.

Monday, April 4, 2011

When I get older, I will be stronger...

Hello guys. How have you all been? Everything good at your side? Woohooo, tell me about it. So umm, yeah I have returned to my blog after a couple of days I know, sorry. Just didn’t feel like blogging at all.

I know I have been telling you guys for long that I will be regular on my blog and all, but, well I just can’t update my blog regularly like all those people out there who do it almost every day! *hint hint* Haha. You probably got it right!

So yeah, whats up again? It was a couple of hours back I was watching the India-Sri Lanka final on TV with family. Like, I am not grieved by India’s win at all. Okay, they beat us in the semis but I don’t really think hating on them just due to this reason would be quite right. But well, that’s only what I think, you need not agree with me!

So, I was studying (read : wasting time on the internet) when dad said we are going out somewhere. I was surprised and extremely delighted to know this. Like yes. I just love going out of the house these days, don’t know why. Maybe it is the cool breeze outside which attracts me or prolly I just find it a good alternative for not studying. Haha. I don’t really feel like studying these days. It seems as if I have lost the inspiration to study. Like, I remember my AS (A level 1st year) days. They weren’t this bad. I put in so much effort into studying last year but now? I think I am not doing even half of the hard work I did back then! Bleh. It all makes me sad when I think of it but still doesn’t convince me enough to get me back to “studying”.

So umm, we went out and I totally loved the whole journey. Whenever we plan to go out somewhere, my dad calls me in and asks me where I would like to go. And that is the moment I have no answer to this apparently “easy” question. Well dad thinks its easy. Like, I just want to get out of the house no matter where you take me. I just feel suffocated inside the house these days. So well, we went out and had a falooda at a juice shop by the roadside. It was a good feeling to sit under the sky, and eat something sweet. Seriously. Then well, when we were all done with it, we decided to go to a nearby park and sit there for some time to relax ourselves. Lil bro wanted to go on the swings as usual so we let him go and me, along with parents, sat down on the seats nearby, talking to each other about random stuff. That was lovely I tell you, talking to parents and all. Like, when we are at home we don’t usually talk much because everyone is busy with their own stuff. I am mostly studying, mom is usually doing the chores and dad is watching the TV after a tiresome day at the office. So we don’t really get a chance to interact that much as these times spent together. I was seriously thinking of going out like this with family more often so we can get closer to each other. Just that dad is usually not interested in going out after he returns from office because he is really exhausted and all but well, I think after all the hard work he does throughout the day, he definitely deserves some rest.

These days mom usually talks about my childhood whenever we sit together at home, reminding me of the good ole’ days. So yeah, she did it tonight too while we were sitting out there. I complained to mom that “yey danial kitney jhuuley jhuulta hai, dil nai bharta isska” and she was like, Shaheryar you don’t know what you used to do when you were young. She said whenever we went out to sindbad (an amusement park) you were never contented no matter how many swings you had been on to. She gave an example that if there were 10 swings and they let me go on 8 of them, I would still make a sad face and complain that “Unn 2 jhuulein pey tou jhulaya nahin”. Hahahahahhah. That made me laugh hard that time and it makes me grin every time I think of it now. Haha. Old times man, I miss them. Furthermore, she added how much love I was been given to by relatives and all. She told me how nana used to take me out on his old scooter after returning from office everyday, how khala used to take me to her house every week pampering me the whole day and how my mamoon’s used to take me to those cheez ki dukaan near our house and how they would let me buy anything I wanted to. Haha. And I guess thats the reason I love having people by my side always, be they friends or relatives. I just feel secure in their company. Yes, I do. It might seem funny to you all but this is the reason I love all these people more than anything. They mean everything to me, they are my world. Its hard to even imagine living life without any of ‘em now even though I am aware of the sad reality of life that everyone has to leave one day. Sigh.

So yeah. Umm, I remember another interesting thing that happened there. It isn’t that significant an event but I have started being quite observant these days so I really enjoy these little moments all to myself. What actually happened was that there was a little girl and she was walking there with her younger brother, stopping him to go to certain areas of the garden, guiding him. They progressed towards a small shop there where this person was selling balls and face masks. They stopped there for some minutes and this little girl asked her brother if he wanted any of those masks. The cute little boy was certainly not interested in those masks in the first place and had his eyes on the big orange balls kept there. She was reluctant but still went up to the shopkeeper to ask him how much it cost so that she could make her sibling happy by fulfilling his wish. She was surprised to know that it cost much greater than the money she had in her hand and so started comforting her brother with these words, “Hamza wo naa ball buhat mehngi naa, aap inn main sey koi mask lengey?”. Hahaha, that was so cute! Really. I almost smiled at how this young girl who was no more than 8 years old was taking care of her 3-year old brother as if shes an adult herself. Haha. It is these moments in my life when I appreciate life and think how awesome life is! I also wondered how childhood is the best phase of our lives, when all we have to do during the day is to eat and sleep. No other worries whatsoever. Sadly, we are just not sufficiently intellectually mature that time to understand this fact or we would have enjoyed our childhood more than we already did! Blah.

So well, that’s pretty much it. Don’t really have anything more up my mind right now. Feeling really tired, plus I have 4 exams this week so its gonna be a real busy one I guess. So umm, mjhey ijaazat dijiyey. Aap logoun say jald mulaqaat hogi. Allah Hafiz. Teeheee!

Oh well, I just checked my facebook right now. A friend sent me a message. Have a look at it.

"And ami abu ko daant pe dont ever be sad its not tht u disappoint them its just that they always want their son to be the shining starrr for his own betterment.. They always say theres a room for improvememt just becuz they have all faith in u that u can do moreeee and more wonders... Their expectations are never ending thats their love i guess.

Even if ur
on the moon theyll expect u to reach higher.. So dont get sad.. Its just their love for uu"


P.S. This was written on the night of 2nd April.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

A New Start to a New Year

Vacations. Aah! They are coming to an end soon. Just a day is left before I return back to my hectic schedule at school with loads of assignments and tests and all. I know how busy I am gonna be after school starts. It will be all so suckish. Haha, but I will still inshallah manage to come online and talk to you people. Haha, good enough?

I just returned from tuitions right now, and I am really tired at the moment. Oh, did I tell you guys I am gonna apply for AKU (Aga Khan University) this year? Oh, erm sorry. So well, I am preparing for AKU's test these days, and that's the reason I am taking tuitions. Aptitude test preparation shit. Haha. I don't really like it. Have to study new stuff which isn't even in our A levels syllabus. It sucks so bad. I wished if they would accept me into the university by just looking at me and noticing my awesomeness. Haha, but I am pretty sure those people at AKU aren't smart enough to spot my awesomeness, so umm I will continue preparing for the test. Haha. The test's on 6th march, I just checked. They are conducting an Open House next saturday i.e. on 8th Jan, a friend just texted me. Will check out the timings as soon as I am done with this post. This friend told me  they are gonna introduce their undergraduate and postgraduate programmes in there. I already have some questions in my mind to ask them. I think I should write 'em down just now somewhere, haha or well I will just forget them. Haha, don't know why but my memory is getting real bad these days. I mean I used to remember small things like these before but nowadays it is just getting pathetic. Maybe it is the aptitude test's preparation which is freaking me out. Haha, god knows!

So umm, I will stop writing here. Bye for now guys. Have to revise a bit of my A levels stuff before school starts, to get in the flow of it. Oh, and I just remembered I didn't have food yet. Mom's calling me. I am leaving. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Oh god! Look I just forgot this really important thing I wanted to share with you people. I was talking to this friend of mine, Tazeen Razi , a week back and I shared some of my ideas with her so that we can write a joint blogpost. So well, she wrote it, showed it to me last night, and when I finally approved of it, she just posted it on her blog. It looks good enough to me and I think she conveyed my message really well mashallah. You guys have a look at it please, and tell me how it looks. Okaay? Thanks. hehe. *vanishes*

http://tazeen-crimsonsky.blogspot.com/2010/12/celebrating-diversity.html

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Its all a matter of time...

29 December 2010. Just two days left before this horrible year comes to an end and we all shall welcome the new year, year 2011. 2010 was a horrible year? Most people would say that. Yes. Inflation, fights, blasts, controversies, deaths. Yes, it indeed was a horrible year if we have a look at it on a large scale. But would you regard it as a bad year even on a personal level? Erm, I don’t think so. And if you will you are only being unthankful, that’s all I can say. Yes really. You might have had major fights with your close ones this year, many of your friends would have left you alone when you needed them the most, you might have been ditched by people you trusted but well. This is all because of you yourself. Yes you. You are responsible for everything. God gave you an awesome brain to deal with all the problems in the world but you just didn’t use it wisely, don’t you think so? Hah. You wont agree with me, I know, but well, I don’t write stuff to please you people. I write whatever I think is right.

Optimism. A thing which I think is lacking in our society. Even inspiration. People in our society are just bound to think negatively. We are rather slaves of these leaders running our country. Really. But now you would say there isn’t any other option, right? Don’t you remember the time when the judiciary was restored? I am not at all into politics (though my dad often scolds me to read newspapers and watch news regularly. He just did that last night, I am not lying) but I still remember this famous event where thousands of lawyers were out of their homes and protested against the lawlessness in the country. And well, what was the result? They got what they wanted!

Erm well, why am I even talking about politics when I don’t know a single thing about it? Maybe I am crazy. Heh. So I woke up at 11 today, had a nice breakfast, and proceeded upstairs to study. But something distracted me. What was it? Books again. It is this urdu novel I am reading these days, “Khan ki diary” by Muhammad Asghar Khan. I am just on the opening chapter but it looks good from the start. And when I say its good, I really mean it. And its because I am not a big fan of reading. Never was, my entire life. But it is these days that I have started to appreciate some specific books, so I think theres something captivating in these books which have caused to build an book-reading interest in me.

These were my English teachers who would always tell me to read good books so that I can improve my literary skills but like tell me, will a cow ever eat meat if you offer her some? I guess the answer is no, and so it was in my case too. Book-reading just wasn’t my thing. I would start reading some book diligently and end up doing something else after reading not more than 10 pages. The reason? Well books didn’t attract me the way it did to other people. And you can imagine how much I used to hate book-reading by the fact that I asked my parents for some books from the harry potter series on my birthday but never read them. I still have the first five of those books. They must be in the closet somewhere, but I haven’t read any of them. I remember reading some pages from the sorcerer’s stone back then when I bought it but I just left it as it is after that.

And then I had these people as friends who were book freaks. They told me they had read this harry potter series a number of times. A friend quotes he has read the whole series a total of seven times. I am pretty sure all you guys reading this must have read the whole series twice at least. Book freaks you all are. Heh. Anyways whenever I used to hear from them, I just wished god to give me a desire for reading good stuff. Reading stuff that helps me both academically and also in building up my personality. They say whenever you ask god for something, your requests are never turned down. That wish might now come true for the time being so you might think that god refused it, but I think its like theres a time for everything to happen. The right time. And only god knows about it, so he decides when to fulfill your wish.

This thing I am telling you, it dates back to 2004-2005 I guess. But you see, today god has fulfilled my wish and has sparked in me a love for reading books. I don’t know but its mysterious that I prefer reading these books over my course books at the moment. Haha, and now I think these textbooks are rather boring. And then there was a time when there was no better book than these coursebooks. Heh. Time changes the way people think, also bringing a change in their behaviours and their habits. This is true, and you all might have noticed it too, right?

Anyways, dad just called me and wanted me to go and get some work done at the bank. So I am back from the bank just now. Had to collect this chequebook for this new savings account my dad opened last week. Sometimes I think of this banking system, and I don’t think it is all correct. I mean yes. It doesn’t approve to regulations laid down by our religion. But I don’t want to get into this discussion right now. I will simply lie here and tell you that I am leaving this topic to be discussed in some other blogpost. I am sure that day will never come when I will be discussing about the banking system. Heh. It doesn’t even attract me in the slightest degree, why should I even waste a post on it? Or I think maybe I will write it when I grow old, when I am like forty or forty-five. Haha.

You guys are still reading this stupid post? Wow. Well done mate. You have got the guts to bear with this awful post I am writing at the moment. Haha. I have noticed my writings are never confined to a single topic. I start talking about one thing and end up discussing another. Haha, I am awesome, no? Heh. I don’t even care what you think of me, dude. I am awesome, I know this, and this is enough for me to be motivated and do all what I have to.

I think this is what we all need in our lives. A little bit of self-motivation, and the ability to be inspired by little things. Little things like, umm, let me tell you an incident. It is a bad example I know, but well it worked for me, so let me mention it. Heh, I am not even going to stop no matter how hard you yell or shout at me. I will simply keep saying what I have to, even if no one listens. You know why? That’s coz I know when I say these things, even if no one listens to it, the words echo back in my own ears and motivate me. Haha, I do this while studying. I can’t read silently. Whenever I am reading text, I read it aloud to myself so that I can hear it back, and well I understand it better when I do so. This is a fact. Strange much? Haha, and then you say I am normal. I am not normal dude. I am someone who is far above being normal. Okay, I am not making sense here, right? Lets talk about something else then.

You see this happens when I blog after a lot of days. I just keep on writing and writing and my stories never end. Haha. See. I am awesome. Erm, so this friend asked me to go on for table tennis today and I said yes last night. But something happened and I don’t feel like going now, so I just messaged him saying that I am not coming and they should go without me. Ofcourse, I didn’t want to miss a golden chance to write a post for my dull blog. I can play table tennis everyday, but I cant write a meaningful post just like that. It requires a special mood for me to write good things. But I don’t think whatever I wrote above was good enough. Don’t you think so?

Did you guys notice I have been trying to bring myself down in all what I have written above? By saying that I don’t write well, and I am not good at stuff and things like that? And then you would say I talk about being an optimist but I am talking pessimistically myself. Dude, no. You are mistaken. This was all part of a plan you know. I know I shouldn’t be disclosing it here but coz I am good and I want you to become clever like me (Am I really clever?) so well I will tell you. Yes, I am gonna tell it to you too, hater. Read it please and try doing sensible stuff from now on. I am sure my words won’t have any effect on you but well, who cares about you! When you don’t care about me, I too don’t.

So its like when you do something or make something and you want people to see it and ask them for their views about it, the most simple way is to go about and ask them how it looks. For example you made this handicraft yourself and you went to your friends to ask them how it looks. Some of ‘em will give their honest opinions and most of them will act sarcastic with you, not giving a response you expected. Now to gain compliments you think your work deserves, you need to go about with a different pathway. Just go upto this friend and tell them, look I made this. Tell me how it looks. And while saying all this you need to feel down and insist the fact that you don’t really like it. Haha, and it works like magic. I am sure people will award you with compliments like, oh it looks wonderful, and you did a great job. Haha. They would be doing it so that you can start feeling better about it, and there you will be, all motivated coz someone thinks your handicraft looks awesome. Haha, Good enough? No? Heh. I knew it. You don’t like it doesn’t mean I am gonna stop talking about it. Boo!

What I think is this world is already full of sorrows and we just need to find small things we can do to cherish ourselves. I mean yes, this person might be your best friend and you would claim that he has this thing to make you feel good when you are down but please stop for a moment and think. Do you think you are gonna continue living with this person your entire life? Is it possible that he will be there for you whenever you need him? I don’t think so. You guys might disagree with me, but this is what I think. And that’s why I need you guys to act sensibly at all times, and not do any such act which you might regret later.

And you know why I have all the right to talk about this? That’s coz I have been through such stages where I confronted these kind of problems and after that when I thought about it, there were the only things that came up my mind as solutions to get out of these situations. Haha. I just scrolled back and saw how much I had already written. Haha, I am awesome. I remember my O level days when we would have a 600 words limit for all our essays and I exceeded it everytime we wrote an essay in the class. Haha, thank god I didn’t do any such thing in my finals or I would have compromised on my bright and shining A grade.

So well, time to leave fellas. I think I have written enough to cause a headache. Most people might not even reach the end I am pretty sure. So lets see which ones of you actually manage to read all this and award me with some wonderful comments. Heh. I know all you guys hate me but I am pretty sure you have better English skills than me, so please try writing some words in glory for this meaningless post. I will be glad to know at least someone read it.

Umm, a small note for all those people who made it till the end, and didn’t find it boring at all. Guys, I LOVE you. Yes really. No matter how big of a stalker a person is, he won’t read such a long post just to know whats going on in someone’s life. I am a stalker myself so I know. Thank you for reading all this. You are the ones who motivate me to get up from my bed every morning and think positively. Yes dude, I am not lying. It is you people who I keep thinking about everyday while performing daily chores. So well, take good care of yourselves, you awesome-friends-of-mine. And keep smiling please. I want you grinning whenever I see you somewhere. So watch out for me. I might be behind you. Maybe. Toodles.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Biology is my Passion

Yesterday was just an awesome day. Like awesomely awesome. In the morning, I had to go somewhere with dad for some work. Then when it was done, he dropped me at school on his way back to office. I reached the school at around half past nine when I realized that none of my classmates had turned up to school. I was confused and texted them to ask if they would be coming for the biology class at 10’O clock. All of them replied in negative. At first I was angry because I was the only one there at school from my class but later on I decided to leave school early. I waited for some time, played a couple of table tennis matches and then left for home.
Reaching home at around 11’O clock, I opened up my computer to find a twitter friend online on MSN. Like, I have never talked to him so early in the morning because either I was in school or sleeping by this time. So I just grabbed some biscuits from the cabinet and came upstairs to talk to him. We talked for around 10 minutes when something interesting struck my mind.
“Hey. We have been talking like since so long but never got a chance to do a voice chat. Are you free? Can we do it today?” was what I said. And he was like, “Okay sure. Why not.” I was overwhelmed to hear this. So I just quickly went up to my closet and came back with the mic and headphones. Yes, I now keep my mic and headphones inside my closet coz just last week mum scolded me for keeping it on the table because it looked so messy then. Infact she ordered me to keep my table neat and clean and to keep all the books on the shelf when I am done with studying. I mean, this is not what I used to do before. All the books that I was using while studying used to be on my table, and they remained like that for weeks. However, times have changed now. Mom’s orders are the top-most priority so well I will try to keep my table organized and clean from now on.
So well back to the point again. We started off with the voice chat and it went pretty good Alhamdolillah. We talked about various things. We shared our stories from school and the extra-curricular activities we are taking part in. We also discussed about sending in university applications. It was such a great experience. And my favorite part was when we talked about biology. I mean biology can be boring at times and its difficult too when you just have to rote-learn the various terms used there, but on a whole, it is amazing because it just shows us how complex the human body is and how perfectly Allah is running our biological system without us having to do any conscious effort for all those processes going on inside our body. Biology shows us the greatness of Allah and has resulted in me being more closer to Islam than ever Alhamdolillah.
And this love for biology that I have, I would like to give half of the credit to my awesome biology teacher, Sir Javed. He has been an inspiration for me in all these years and I personally think he has been the best biology teacher who has ever taught me. Like seriously. His unique style of teaching, his funny way of pronouncing specific words, his particular pathan accent, and the way he scolds us. All these things have just attracted me towards him. It wont be wrong if I say that I love him!
So umm….we talked for around an hour that day when I noticed that the time for electricity breakdown was near. So I just bade farewell to him, said thanks for the awesome conversation, and went offline.
So friends, This is all for today. I totally enjoyed yesterday’s events. Everything went so fine and perfect. I hope everything in life just moves on as smoothly as it did yesterday. Life, I think, is better when you start expecting less from it. You enjoy your life more when you are happy with whatever you have, no matter how little it is. I think I did the same and now I am enjoying what life is offering me. Goodbye for now people. I hope to blog really soon again. Take Care!