When I get older, I will be stronger...

Hello guys. How have you all been? Everything good at your side? Woohooo, tell me about it. So umm, yeah I have returned to my blog after a couple of days I know, sorry. Just didn’t feel like blogging at all.

I know I have been telling you guys for long that I will be regular on my blog and all, but, well I just can’t update my blog regularly like all those people out there who do it almost every day! *hint hint* Haha. You probably got it right!

So yeah, whats up again? It was a couple of hours back I was watching the India-Sri Lanka final on TV with family. Like, I am not grieved by India’s win at all. Okay, they beat us in the semis but I don’t really think hating on them just due to this reason would be quite right. But well, that’s only what I think, you need not agree with me!

So, I was studying (read : wasting time on the internet) when dad said we are going out somewhere. I was surprised and extremely delighted to know this. Like yes. I just love going out of the house these days, don’t know why. Maybe it is the cool breeze outside which attracts me or prolly I just find it a good alternative for not studying. Haha. I don’t really feel like studying these days. It seems as if I have lost the inspiration to study. Like, I remember my AS (A level 1^st year) days. They weren’t this bad. I put in so much effort into studying last year but now? I think I am not doing even half of the hard work I did back then! Bleh. It all makes me sad when I think of it but still doesn’t convince me enough to get me back to “studying”.

So umm, we went out and I totally loved the whole journey. Whenever we plan to go out somewhere, my dad calls me in and asks me where I would like to go. And that is the moment I have no answer to this apparently “easy” question. Well dad thinks its easy. Like, I just want to get out of the house no matter where you take me. I just feel suffocated inside the house these days. So well, we went out and had a falooda at a juice shop by the roadside. It was a good feeling to sit under the sky, and eat something sweet. Seriously. Then well, when we were all done with it, we decided to go to a nearby park and sit there for some time to relax ourselves. Lil bro wanted to go on the swings as usual so we let him go and me, along with parents, sat down on the seats nearby, talking to each other about random stuff. That was lovely I tell you, talking to parents and all. Like, when we are at home we don’t usually talk much because everyone is busy with their own stuff. I am mostly studying, mom is usually doing the chores and dad is watching the TV after a tiresome day at the office. So we don’t really get a chance to interact that much as these times spent together. I was seriously thinking of going out like this with family more often so we can get closer to each other. Just that dad is usually not interested in going out after he returns from office because he is really exhausted and all but well, I think after all the hard work he does throughout the day, he definitely deserves some rest.

These days mom usually talks about my childhood whenever we sit together at home, reminding me of the good ole’ days. So yeah, she did it tonight too while we were sitting out there. I complained to mom that “yey danial kitney jhuuley jhuulta hai, dil nai bharta isska” and she was like, Shaheryar you don’t know what you used to do when you were young. She said whenever we went out to sindbad (an amusement park) you were never contented no matter how many swings you had been on to. She gave an example that if there were 10 swings and they let me go on 8 of them, I would still make a sad face and complain that “Unn 2 jhuulein pey tou jhulaya nahin”. Hahahahahhah. That made me laugh hard that time and it makes me grin every time I think of it now. Haha. Old times man, I miss them. Furthermore, she added how much love I was been given to by relatives and all. She told me how nana used to take me out on his old scooter after returning from office everyday, how khala used to take me to her house every week pampering me the whole day and how my mamoon’s used to take me to those cheez ki dukaan near our house and how they would let me buy anything I wanted to. Haha. And I guess thats the reason I love having people by my side always, be they friends or relatives. I just feel secure in their company. Yes, I do. It might seem funny to you all but this is the reason I love all these people more than anything. They mean everything to me, they are my world. Its hard to even imagine living life without any of ‘em now even though I am aware of the sad reality of life that everyone has to leave one day. Sigh.

So yeah. Umm, I remember another interesting thing that happened there. It isn’t that significant an event but I have started being quite observant these days so I really enjoy these little moments all to myself. What actually happened was that there was a little girl and she was walking there with her younger brother, stopping him to go to certain areas of the garden, guiding him. They progressed towards a small shop there where this person was selling balls and face masks. They stopped there for some minutes and this little girl asked her brother if he wanted any of those masks. The cute little boy was certainly not interested in those masks in the first place and had his eyes on the big orange balls kept there. She was reluctant but still went up to the shopkeeper to ask him how much it cost so that she could make her sibling happy by fulfilling his wish. She was surprised to know that it cost much greater than the money she had in her hand and so started comforting her brother with these words, “Hamza wo naa ball buhat mehngi naa, aap inn main sey koi mask lengey?”. Hahaha, that was so cute! Really. I almost smiled at how this young girl who was no more than 8 years old was taking care of her 3-year old brother as if shes an adult herself. Haha. It is these moments in my life when I appreciate life and think how awesome life is! I also wondered how childhood is the best phase of our lives, when all we have to do during the day is to eat and sleep. No other worries whatsoever. Sadly, we are just not sufficiently intellectually mature that time to understand this fact or we would have enjoyed our childhood more than we already did! Blah.

So well, that’s pretty much it. Don’t really have anything more up my mind right now. Feeling really tired, plus I have 4 exams this week so its gonna be a real busy one I guess. So umm, mjhey ijaazat dijiyey. Aap logoun say jald mulaqaat hogi. Allah Hafiz. Teeheee!

Oh well, I just checked my facebook right now. A friend sent me a message. Have a look at it.

"And ami abu ko daant pe dont ever be sad its not tht u disappoint them its just that they always want their son to be the shining starrr for his own betterment.. They always say theres a room for improvememt just becuz they have all faith in u that u can do moreeee and more wonders... Their expectations are never ending thats their love i guess.

Even if ur on the moon theyll expect u to reach higher.. So dont get sad.. Its just their love for uu"

P.S. This was written on the night of 2nd April.